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For too long now have I been sleeping my life away. A warm lethargy has taken hold of all areas of my waking life. Apathetic indifference stole its way into my demeanor. I've traded in the hours of sunlight for the obscure hours of night for months on end. Daily schooling that is forced upon me leaves me too tired to learn what I need to learn, to tired to understand what I need to make me happy. Everybody is subject to this torment. Everybody I know is confused. The way a person reacts to this setup is sometimes different; I've seen no good come of this defense mechanism. Indifference is a common reaction. The world goes on, but I come home, and go to sleep. Forget about what I could be experiencing outside, I can fast forward to the night, where not a soul is stirring and thinking is possible in absentia of stimuli. That is what soothes and regenerates the soul. A steady city clamor lays in unhealthy contrast. To be in existence, is to be unhealthy no matter which way you put it. Self preservation is impossible  no doubt, so we need to make the most out of each conscious moment. Lethargy smothers motivation and drive and fatally lessens the person who we are meant to be. Here I am offered the only feasible option: keep those eyes open, take all of it in, don't let any of it out.